Agape Comfort Through Depression


 (Jim Estok) 

Hidden layers of our pain, our hurt, our anguish, our guilt, our embarrassment and our grief it is all in our subconscious memory isolated from our conscious memory. Our pain blocks the ability of conscious recall, keeping the anguish hidden. Have you ever noticed the happy memories are so easy to recall, but not so much the painful memories? Suppression=preservation?

Our conscious can be likened to a barn and it’s partner the silo(s) {many farms have multiple silos for each barn} the barn building representing the conscious memory: while the silo represents the subconscious memory. Deep in the dark recesses of the silo(s) lies our pain, our hurt, our anguish, our guilt, our embarrassment and our grief to name a few emotions.

“Life is like photography. We develop from the negatives.” Jason McNaughten, Confessions of a Depressed Christian: How a Pastor Survived Depression & How You Can Too


I’m finding out these days that even though my conscious recall has kept some memories hidden. That it is not really the case because my coping, or lack of, coping mechanisms are directly linked to my subconscious. Protecting me subconsciously and altering my behaviours, in fact, without realizing the effect it has created discourse, biases and emotional impact.

“Agape is disinterested love. . . . Agape does not begin by discriminating between worthy and unworthy people, or any qualities people possess. It begins by loving others for their sakes. . . . Therefore, agape makes no distinction between friend and enemy; it is directed toward both.” Martin Luther King, Jr.

During these personal challenging times, the greatest comfort and my source of hope lie in the Agape love (from the Greek word ἀγάπη) bestowed upon me by God and my relationship with God through Jesus Christ. Read 1 Corinthians 13 for a complete description of Agape.

Jim Estok
Purveyor of Light through Life lived & shared and through photography


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